Grateful

This morning I am so very very grateful.

I struggle with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome; one therapist I had told me that the only common denominator in the research on this disorder is some sort of trauma.  Well, I am a rape survivor, as well as a survivor of emotional/verbal abuse as a child. I have blogged earlier about my rape story.  Focus on the Family did a series on CFS a few years ago.  It was very good.  They had people on it who had CFS.  Some had been healed and some had not. 

The joy and gratitude I experienced being outside this morning in the sunshine, walking with my beautiful neighbors; just being able to experience the morning is something I really reflected on. I am not able, physically, to do it every day.   The good feelings are not about my circumstances.  I have troubles just like everyone (though many do not admit it).  To be in this ‘place’ is the result of  what I call Intentional Choice to be on what I call the Recovery Road.  It is from being in a place of Resolution and Redemption; being more in His Presence than I could ever have imagined 25 years ago.  It is such a great Road to be on. Isn’t the ‘joy’ of the fruits of the Spirit hard for some of you to understand?  Me too, but it is with me more and more; a challenge to put into words actually.

The Bible speaks about the broad way and the narrow way.  Matt.7: 13&14 (NIV) says; ” Enter through the narrow gate.  For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter thrugh it.  But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.”  The same scripture in The Message translation reads:” “Don’t look for shortcuts to God.  The market is flooded with surefire, easy going formulas for a successful life that can be practiced in your spare time.  Don’t fall for that stuff, even though crowds of people do.  The way to life –God’s–is vigorous and requires total attention.” 

I have to wonder how many of us have a clue as to what these scriptures mean.  Can’t say I have heard a lot of teaching about them.

For me, for survivors of SV, their families, friends, and faith communities, I believe it relates to what I call Intentional Choice to take the Unintended Journey to heal the emotional/spiritual cancer that the wound has made.  I write in my book about what the stages of recovery look like and how to start on the Recovery Road. 

I grieve for all those who have not made the choice.  Research tells us that 25-75% of all people, not just females, are survivors.  The cancer that inflicts in the form of all kinds of problems is a huge topic to discuss.  Eating disorders, addictions of all sorts, including workaholism, and, well the list is enormous.  Fred Littaur wrote a book titledThe Promise of Restoration.  He has a huge list of the symptoms SV can inflict. 

(Sigh) I wish for everyone to make the Intentional Choice to step onto the Recovery Road and take the above scripture seriously. 

If anyone is interested on what some ideas for starting, I will be glad to give them.

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